I have not seen my granddaughter Luna, in over a year. Her mother, my oldest daughter has some issues, and will no longer allow Luna to have any contact with me. I am here to "talk" to Luna, in case she one day searches for me online. There is no way of knowing how long this estrangement will last, and I want Luna to know how much I lover her, how much she means to me, and how much I miss her. This is a terribly painful situation for me, and I am sure it is hurting Luna as well. She is close to turning 14 and until a year ago, we were very close.
For years, I would take care of Luna, in her home state, or mine, for almost two weeks while her mom took students to conferences around the world. I was a good grandmother, and took great care of her. We also took our RV up and visited for months at a time to help Luna and her mom out. I took care of Luna as a baby and toddler when her mom worked. I was trusted until a year ago. I'm quite sure I am still trusted... the difference is I am despised now.
Luna's mom had an incident where Luna called me, almost 800 miles away, because she was scared at the time, of her mom. There were some dangerous issues that caused me to call the police to check on them. Because I did that, Luna can not call, text, or Facebook me at all. Things had been deteriorating for years between Luna's mom and I. I don't understand at all why, but she was very critical of me, and stayed in her room reading when she was not at work.
I honestly have no clue why my daughter has been so disparaging towards me, more and more with each year. I have asked but get no response. For the past 5 years or so, I have rewound events in my head, examining each frame of the continuous loop for my errors. I can find nothing that warrants the rancor I have experienced.
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