Good morning, Luna Bean! I am waiting to go pick up Savannah from work at 1215 and have been thinking of you a lot.

I miss you so much and hope this estrangement does not last much longer.  I so want to see you and talk to you.

We have four kitties now! Can you believe it? Our newest one is a little grey kitty named Baby Blue. She is Pops' baby, though she hates to be held! I will post a picture soon.

Time to go. Just remember I will always loe you, no matter what. You are my sweet granddaughter forever. XOXOX Mom Mom

Hello Sweetie,  Do you remember Savannah teaching you to ride her rip-stick? It has been several days since I posted here... busy as always running with the kids. One of the boys got expelled from school, for one day yesterday, and I picked him up and left him with Pops while I took Savannah to the mall  to get her hair cut and highlighted. Then she wanted to look in some stores. We grabbed a lettuce wrap from In-and-Out and picked up Mari, then to school to get Luca. I was gone ALL day and was drop-dead worn out when we got home.

My sweet Luna. I love you so much and forever. I do not believe you don't want to talk to me, for I did nothing wrong. When you called me from your locked room, scared, what was I to do? I had to call the police-you were in danger. Just in case THAT is why you're not talking to me. No, you have been told by your mom, or the "counselor" to not communicate with me.

The Centeno family from your mom's generation down, seems to hold grudges, stay in denial, and have an angry temper. There is no peace at all in this family. I try awfully hard, and I really miss seeing my family.

I hope you are having a good school year. Do you see Gretchen at all any more? I think of you each day. Did I tell you Pops had cataract surgery, and wears this funny looking patch? If he wore two at a time, Savannah says he would look like he had fly eyes! He is mostly healed now, and then on Oct. 4 he has the other eye done. I put in lots of drops throughout the day for him, and that will continue into November.

Not a lot to tell. Mari will be going to her school's homecoming on October 1st, and got  beautiful black dress with silver sequins and jewels at the waist. Micah wants to get into cosplay, and both boys start soccer in a few weeks. Savannah and Jake are getting their own place soon! Savannah got a lion tattoo, and I will post pictures soon. You know I don't like tattoos, but it IS cute and colorful.

I will love you forever, Luna Bean! XOXOXOXOX Mom Mom

Hello Sweetie, I just feel like chatting with you. I'd love to hear how 8th grade is going. Do you have your own locker or a locker - mate again this year? Is Freckles in any of your classes? Since it has been so long since we spoke, I really don't know who your friends are anymore, or what you are doing. I miss your gorgeous face so much. It must be getting cooler there by now, huh?

Did you know that Savannah is working at Culvers these days? You may remember Culvers from when we used to take Savannah to the ice rink. She's working at a newer one. She is very busy, and almost working full time. Between her work and her boyfriend, I don't see her much anymore!

I'll keep this short, but I plan to come here often, especially when I miss you so much it hurts!
Love you more than chicken! XOXOXOXOX Mom Mom

Pop Pop's Birthday

Today is Pop Pop's 75th birthday. We know we will not be hearing from you.  :-(
We sure do miss you, Luna Bean. I hope you are enjoying your new year at school. I think of you everyday, and want you to know I love you forever. I can hardly believe you are in 8th grade! 

Seems not long ago, I was there in the room when you were born! Such a beautiful baby. I had fallen in love with you before you were born, and if it is possible to love you even more, I did once I held you. We were all there. Pop Pop waited in the waiting room with Mari and Savannah. Mari was just 1! What a day! That night we all came back to see you and Tia Rosa did too. You may have forgotten her- one of my best friends, she lives across the street!

I think your mom is wrong to keep us away from you, since we are good people with no vices, and we were "good enough" to take care of you your whole life when your mom was not there. You had some rough times with your cousins, but you and I always had a great time! At least I thought we did.

Anyway, I will go before I start crying again. I love you more than chicken and I will always love you, no matter what. 

Waiting for that day...   Love you, Mom Mom

Grandparent Alienation Hurts

I have not seen my granddaughter Luna, in over a year. Her mother, my oldest daughter has some issues, and will no longer allow Luna to have any contact with me. I am here to "talk" to Luna, in case she one day searches for me online. There is no way of knowing how long this estrangement will last, and I want Luna to know how much I lover her, how much she means to me, and how much I miss her. This is a terribly painful situation for me, and I am sure it is hurting Luna as well. She is close to turning 14 and until a year ago, we were very close.

For years, I would take care of Luna, in her home state, or mine, for almost two weeks while her mom took students to conferences around the world. I was a good grandmother, and took great care of her. We also took our RV up and visited for months at a time to help Luna and her mom out. I took care of Luna as a baby and toddler when her mom worked. I was trusted until a year ago. I'm quite sure I am still trusted... the difference is I am despised now.

Luna's mom had an incident where Luna called me, almost 800 miles away, because she was scared at the time, of her mom. There were some dangerous issues that caused me to call the police to check on them. Because I did that, Luna can not call, text, or Facebook me at all. Things had been deteriorating for years between Luna's mom and I. I don't understand at all why, but she was very critical of me, and stayed in her room reading when she was not at work. 

I honestly have no clue why my daughter has been so disparaging towards me, more and more with each year. I have asked but get no response. For the past 5 years or so, I have rewound events in my head, examining each frame of the continuous loop for my errors. I can find nothing that warrants the rancor I have experienced.